Well, my friends, my short blogging hiatus seems to be ending. As you may have read here or there, I returned to work in mid March. Surprisingly, I decided not to blog about my return to work. To be honest, thoughts were bouncing around in my head like ping pong balls, and I don’t think I could have articulated how I was feeling.
The long and short of it is, I tried it. I figured out what I did and didn’t want, and I made a decision. I did full-time (albeit full time working from home) for a little over two weeks. Several days in, I knew that it wasn’t what I wanted. Fortunately for me, Brad and I have been planning (and saving) for years to give me the option to stay home with a baby. Given the option, I couldn’t pass it up.
I briefly explored working part-time. It was so tempting – keeping a second income! keeping my marketing brain sharp! – but in the end, I realized that my heart wanted to be home full-time. If I tried to work part-time, I would end up either losing part of my dream, or being a full-time mommy by day and a part-time marketer by night/nap-times. I didn’t think it was the right solution for me, for Vivian, or for the company.
I said goodbye with a heavy heart. It’s funny – working in the corporate world oftentimes exhausted me to the point of tears. There were times that I would have gladly stamped my little feet right out the door. Instead, I have found myself tearing up over leaving. Closing this chapter of my life is bittersweet. Over the course of the last five years, I’ve grown in ways I never would have imagined, and I’ve made lifelong friends and mentors.
Another chapter closed, perhaps to be reopened again someday? Now on to the next great adventure.
P.S. Did anyone else watch tonight’s episode of Game of Thrones? Another incestuous storyline – creeped me out, y’all!